The impediment that haunts me

As I begin to build my life at 30, I have come to realise the extent that my life has been affected by the words of others and the profound impact that it’s had on my ability to go out into the world, to make a life for myself, to progress and find who itContinue reading “The impediment that haunts me”

A deep desire for escape from womanhood

Throughout the years of pubescent development, my mother spewed words that had a profoundly devastating impact throughout my young life. Her words sculpted my mind. They led me down a road of self-destruction. They are what plagued my mind. My desire to become another and to alter my body through medical treatment stemmed from wordsContinue reading “A deep desire for escape from womanhood”

My legal right to live as my birth sex has been stripped from me

Those who are transgender seem to be handed all that they want, no questions asked. Surgeries, hormones and legal document changes. They are accepted and treated with dignity and respect. I transitioned at the age of 19 and lived as male for 10 years. Recently, I realised that transitioning was a mistake and that thisContinue reading “My legal right to live as my birth sex has been stripped from me”

The medicalisation of Gender Dysphoric Kids and Adolescents

The medicalisation of Gender Dysphoria is on the rise. What is influencing young people to medically alter their bodies? Are they being influenced by their peers? Is it trauma? A wish to escape their lives? A means for emotional suppression? For me, childhood trauma led to my desire to hormonally and surgically alter my body.Continue reading “The medicalisation of Gender Dysphoric Kids and Adolescents”

Transitioning to Forget the Truth

Through my adolescence, I was consumed by thoughts of my body. These thoughts were a focal point, I was unable to see what it was that was happening around me. The abuse. It all surpassed my consciousness. All I was seeing were the inadequacies and the thoughts of my body consumed my being. Thoughts ofContinue reading “Transitioning to Forget the Truth”

How did you come to feel that you are in the wrong body?

I have worked with many LGBTIQ people over the 20+ years that I have been a therapist. As a member of the LGBTIQ community, it is important to me and a privilege to help others struggling with sexuality and gender issues. In the last 5 years, I have been shocked by the unprecedented number ofContinue reading “How did you come to feel that you are in the wrong body?”

Is it really as simple as being born in the ‘wrong’ body?

As I think about the prospect of having children, it leads me to the decision that I made at age 20 to have a hysterectomy. Children were never something that I thought I wanted, however now at age 30, I ponder whether this is something that I do want. Was my desire to decide againstContinue reading “Is it really as simple as being born in the ‘wrong’ body?”

A hurting heart

As I reflect upon my life and look at the way that I have developed – how trauma has led me to lead a life of isolation. How it has given me a skewed perception of others and myself. It has prevented me from developing relationships and living a life of fulfilment. As I comeContinue reading “A hurting heart”

Trauma, not Gender Dysphoria

As time went on, I became aware that the unhappiness that I felt grew despite my working on my childhood trauma in therapy. As I thought more about my transition, I pondered if it really was all I made it out to be. Through talking with my therapist, together we pondered what it was IContinue reading “Trauma, not Gender Dysphoria”

Becoming Lost

Transition for me meant finding solace. I thought it would aid me in finding myself and the development of my personal attributes. The further I progressed with medical transition, the more intrusive and all-consuming the dysphoria became. These thoughts became distressing and led me to want to have surgery which I did as I believedContinue reading “Becoming Lost”